What is missing?

It is cliché to feel a little lost and upset on Monday mornings and afternoons. I have often thought what is it exactly like to miss something or someone. Do we miss the good times spent with those people or do we miss their minds? Do we miss the laughter or do we miss ourselves with them?

There are these specific words and phrases which we use only with certain people. To me, missing someone or something even means not being able to use those words for others. There are these songs which you associate with people, places and events in your life. For me, listening to those songs, open the floodgates of memories. Probably this is missing.

Then, we have these events and episodes which we keep remembering. The award you received, the first kiss, the moment when you exactly understood it was love, the time when you made people around you proud, and when the sound of your breaking heart was deafening- you miss people from each of these chapters of your life. I have lived in various cities and have traveled considerably within the country and couple of times outside the country. I always thought and believed that I am detached and moving from one place to another was never difficult. With years adding up to my life, I have understood that all these places, the people, and the events have become a part of me. I am them. The moments I focus on any of the aspects of my personality, I am re-visiting all those places, those people and events in my mind. Probably this is missing.

This finally brings me to when you care for someone immensely, let us say, you love the person, you miss them on a daily basis. You miss everything about them- the way they eat, the way they walk, the way they smile, the way they look at you and the way they do everything. You will ask me so what is that something new am trying to state here. I am not trying to say anything new. I am just trying to remember good times. Being nostalgic and missing things and people don’t make you weak. I used to think that to express and say you are missing someone, gives the other person the power to make you feel vulnerable. But, at times you want to give away that power and feel vulnerable. Perhaps, this is missing.